


Often, I find myself thinking about how someone else must feel.
But too often that keeps truths hidden, unrevealed.
Do I really know what it means to be kind?
I value different walks of life.
But I have found it harder these days to balance that with my path, an internal strife.
Do I really know what it means to be accepting?
There are days I stay as quiet as a mouse.
But others I could fill a whole field with my shouts.
Do I really know what it means to have a voice?
Some days my actions show how much I would be willing to sacrifice for those I have loved.
But then I scream, asking why they couldn’t do the same when I treated some like blood.
Do I really know what it means to be unconditional?
Some mornings I wake up and see myself worthy of applause.
But sometimes those same afternoons are filled with these flaws.
This seems like it will always remain true.
My days are often shaped by others
By what I think they might like
By what they must think of me
By what they expect of me
By what I have learned about desirability
I am just scared of not being perfect
I am just scared of not being wanted
I am just scared of not being loved
I am trying to not let fear shape me
So I never decorate myself in embellishments that make me unrecognizable
So I never mold to perspectives of me
So I never bend what I value most
So I never hollow my opinion of myself simply because of the vantage of others
I am working to truly believe it is not me that is unworthy of love.
It is them not seeing how worthy I am.
These days I am trying to be unbendable.






Once I asked a question the world dismissed
Did the Darkness overshadow the Light?
My mom told me Darkness did not exist
And the Futures created such lies to cripple our might
So I watched our ceaseless Sunset and thought
The colors engraved into the still Sky
Always swirled in pinks, blues, and oranges that day had brought
The setting Sun is a prideful, vain beast
They say this to explain why his reign has not been released
This is a lie like our sound existence
I believe we have hidden a grim truth with much persistence
Like the Sunset that sets eternally
We fear what lurks within the true Darkness
And cloak it with fictitious pride alone internally
A Sunset with its endless progressions
Mirrors our concealed life filled with veiled threats
So we mask fear with silent impressions
By creating a dark less World where the Sun never sets